It’s like I’ve been in a state of slumber. As I sit at my desk for the first time in a season, I find myself feeling anxious. “Can I still do this? Am I who I believe myself deep down to be?”

I run my hand across the top of my decks. A fine layer of dust sticks to my fingers. In this time of chaos and healing, my tools have laid dormant. Quietly waiting to work together once again.

I steady my breath and try to calm my energy. I trust in spirit. My faith is in God and His tender mercies.

It’s like a previous version of me once sat in this chair. She almost feels like a stranger now. So many things have happened and come to pass. I grieve her once precious dreams. Those goals and desires feel so lofty and far away now. Is she truly gone? Can I get her back?

That girl who was so excited to serve others. That girl who knew how connected to spirit she was. That girl who found wonder in the synchronicities that were once, ever present. Can I find my way back to her?

Twenty minutes before it’s time to meet my client, my heart is racing. Deep breaths fill my lungs while the sound of meditation music fills the room. Calm begins to fill my body as I open with a prayer and focus on grounding my energy. 

“Allow me to be a clear conduit for divine messaging.” 

I start to receive images and messages. I can feel spirit fill the room. One last deep breath and it’s time for the session to begin.

As soon as my client appears on the screen, I immediately begin to connect. Messages of direction, hope, and healing are coming through so fluidly. It’s as if no time has passed since the last time I connected in this way. My heart is so full of joy and gratitude for this moment of service to not only my client but to spirit as well.

For a moment I caught a glimpse of that previous version of myself. She wasn’t gone after all, just tucked away for safekeeping while I focused on healing my mind and body and tending to important human matters.

I am thankful for this reminder of who it is that I am and for the wisdom and timing of spirit to bring me exactly what I need.

This was a journal entry from earlier this year, from a moment in time I was feeling incredibly unsure of so many things. It was a season that the silence I perceived of spirit was deafening. I longed for a sign, any sign that all was not lost. I am so thankful that God, the Universe, spirit always reminds me who I am and what I’m capable of. 

Maybe this story feels familiar? 

Maybe you can see parts of yourself here?

Maybe you’re currently in a season where spirit is quiet?

Maybe you’ve become acutely aware that your spiritual abilities don’t seem to be as present as they once were?

Maybe you feel like you’ve lost a part of yourself and long to be reunited with what once was?

I want to remind you that who you are, the gifts you were born with, and your connection to spirit are your birthright. They will never leave you. The universe is always conspiring on your behalf.

In this season of quiet when the deafening sound of silence begins to become overwhelming, please know that this part of yourself isn’t gone, it’s just tucked away for safekeeping. 

 With Love, 

Amy